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2009-06-16T23:06:00.000-07:00

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2009-06-15T10:28:00.000-07:00

dunno wats wrong with me..negative pasts keep haunting me back...argh..kinda sux..actually...it really sux...i fear every single step when with u..at any time..the thought of the past will remind me...the past history is so fucked up..haiz...ill keep it to myself...i wont even ask u anything bout the qns in my mind...if i did..ill then pull myself away from u...the past really breaks me into pieces...maybe..the saying is true...somethings are better not to be known..bcoz we are frens last time..and maybe..we are too open..the mistake n pain stays for a lifetime..the heart always says it loves u...but the mind create some flashbacks dat keep reminding me bout the past...worse..imagining it...it might take me years to get rid of dis...im trying my very best every single second...every night..b4 i sleep...it comes..haiz...nothing can change it...unless if time rewinds itself few years back....let it go...

dad bout me iphone mini...which kinda get used to it already....its a lil smaller than my ezlink..ya..imagine how i sms...took me a long time to sms a short msg...haha...oh ya...btw...TO those who perform last gig..sori i didnt turn up for it...got some problems to take care of...deadly,sinfully...SORI...lol....

competition postponed...28th june...fighting for our livez....18 bands...a lot of them...power2....but...who give a damn...we came to fight...not to look at them and telling ouselves dat we suck...we dont suck...we try hard to make something happen...and...expect the unexpected i guess...cause...we made quite a few changes on both songs...but...changing a song....dajal stays...the other might be hakikat perjuangan,tiada lagi airmata,blabla,bla,bla....dunno la kan..we r gonna make it like a concert...got ideas just now on how to improve....tmr will just show them the sequence n stuff when session at jai place...so called..jamming..only dun have bass amp...FUCK....i dunno if its loud enough if i use my subwoofer..without my multi efx..cause tmr then Edy pass back..so..just try my luck...ouh ya..maan...fight maan..tk ya takot la dorang bagus ke tak...main thing...enjoy...do our best aite...18 bands jer...anugerah boleh tk kan nie tk leh....

dis time round...im going crazy on the fretboard of my bass...idc if u guys think im like those mcm phm or wat...all i know...i play fancy2..but i find the notes one at a time..make sure it really sounds gd and the right scale...peace

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2009-06-12T03:55:00.001-07:00

YAY...SPF medical checkup on the 18th nxt week...gonna be a bz week....with competition and other stuffs......not long den im joining the force....den gonna find those kind of people who always create trouble....lock dem up.....dats wat is stated here in the letter...crime prevention...and arresting of suspects...wohooo...hahaha...hopefully when im in...TWL will create trouble...it will be kinda easy to catch those wimps..hahah..crazy....planning to get those kind of job...ssb....lock sama dorang...

now...keep practicing for the comp...we really got no time to jam...but after 2 jamming...we'll be ok...we practice hard quite a few times...only without maan...cause he is bz..so...should be ok..maan...give ur best...next week gonna be hell of a jamming.....prepare IC and Rosewood....hahaha...kk....done

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2009-06-11T09:56:00.000-07:00

jom blogging jom.....hahaha........listen up...I GOT A JOB...at swensons...and fkin hell its not dat SPF....dear police people...GIVE ME MY FKIN LETTER AND LET ME SIGN THE CONTRACT................ok..done..ariz oso get the job..at holland v...

and..wow...u said dat to him??if u really did..gd for u...u passed..if u did not..den..u are a liar...pants on fire....life is changing..so are we....so..learn to adapt ok...we learn as we go...TOGETHER........yes...i wont be dat notti to go and layan girls at the new workplace ok.....takot sngt la.....takot2 nnt btol2 hilang tau...so..jgn takot.yg penting ikhlas.......done...

competition next sunday...tiada lagi air mata n dajal...added colours to both music..dats wat music is all about rite...so maan..be prepared bro..do ur stuff when on stage with iron child....u know us better than anyone else....

my life...the past is haunting me to remember it........i want to start new..which i already did la..haha..so..peace to all...tmr friday prayers.......im so going to prayers tmr.......jom kwn2...gi solat...start from a small step.....den u can face challenges better....in a way la....

2009-06-10T05:36:00.000-07:00

The prophets of God have left you solaced indeed
A zombie of Jesus insane with his belief
Is all that you know and all you take as you go
Youre one with the rich and only take from the poor

Nailed to the cross by your hands and your feet
Your washed up religion is now worthless and weak
Tenacious conviction has caught up with your soul
Theres no place for mercy in the myths of your lord

Little lamb of sacrifice, full of Bible hymns
Hiding in the house of God, from his suffering
Pray the son will come and call just to make us dead
Bring upon the end of timesworship if you dare

Wiping out masses just for shits and a grin
Is all an illusion of the spell that youre in
Religious confliction has impaired your control
In his resurrection, revelations unfold

He is you the sacrifice, in the house of bless
Crucify yourself to death just to get to him
Die. will you.

Annihilation by the hands of God
Mutilate me.
Annihilation by the hands of God
Unforgiving.
Annihilation by the hands of God
Christ ill willing.
Annihilation by the hands of God
Heaven hates you.

When its time, I wont look back
Heavens gates under attack

Satan.
Satan.
Satan.
Satan.

Little lamb of sacrifice, full of Bible hymns
Hiding in the house of God, from his suffering
Pray the son will come and call just to make us dead
Bring upon the end of times. worship if you dare

Annihilation by the hands of God
Mutilate me.
Annihilation by the hands of God
Unforgiving.
Annihilation by the hands of God
Christ ill willing.
Annihilation by the hands of God
Heaven hates you.

a lil song 4 u little wimps motherfucker

hmm

2009-06-10T01:44:00.000-07:00

I've been searching for an oasis
In the desert for so long
In my weakness trying
To pretend I'm strong

I've been holding on
To things that I have left behind
I've been scared and lonely
I'm crippled inside

Bathed my soul in the starlight
Healed my wounds in the sun
Screamed my pain to the forest
Asking the question why?

Will there come a time for me when I find peace of mind
Will I always have this feeling like I'm last in the line
I will climb up the mountain and light up the candle and ask:
"Will my soul ever rest in peace?"

I've been washed in pain
Haunted by the ghosts of years ago
They won't leave me be
They keep coming back for more

Will there come a time for me when I find peace of mind
Will I always have this feeling like I'm last in the line
I will climb up the mountain and light up the candle and ask:
"Will my soul ever rest in peace?"

My crippled soul is yearning to be free

Will there come a time for me when I find peace of mind
Will I always have this feeling like I'm last in the line
I will climb up the mountain and light up the candle and ask:
"Will my soul ever rest in peace?"

nice song...if i die..i wanna rest in peace...

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2009-06-07T04:25:00.000-07:00

Blogged....fuck u all that are not invited here...wakakkkaka....xian..but enjoy life...dunno wat to do....lepas masok SPF baru power....tahan2 orng....weeee....saper2 aku tk suke tapi buat salah kan...tangkap.......saper2 aku suke...tapi buat salah....pon aku tangkap...best per...tapi nie nk sign contract peh lmbt....for now...enjoy life with her....enjoy my life...orng lau tk kacau...aku tk kacau....orng lau da kacau...aku buat kacau....get wat i mean...lamer tk go gig....might be going to bellzone again...members perform..den...21st june...competition....trying my best to get my band together....we can do it dis time...everyone is working hard to cope with our band...ariz skills are fkin superb...everyone has gone up another level...hmm...living life with her is sure is fun...without any disturbance...we live freely...do wat we like...enjoy scolding each other...watever it is...i own her and she owns me now...just want her to finish her private studies to get some certs...and me to get dat SPF thing...and we will be reaching our goals....i just want her to have a peaceful n fun life...nothing else matters...hmm....nampak nyer...sumer orng2 atas da nk relek....banyak pon da relek...people are changing for the better i guess...in Rockers League...mcm ada new set of leaders to lead...RR...ketua da nk kahwin...coke....da lama ketua cabot lari den relek..ketua huruf pertama dlm kitab islam lau korang belajar agama la...pon da keje govt sector...saper sangka...its a nice view to see them chill down....ada budak samseng2 pon da rock n roll...tatoo tak agak2...tapi sumer da relek...tapi...ada jugak orng2 yg maseh nk buat2 nie sumer...budak2 secondary aku pon ape beza....lagak samseng..sajer jer korang...lau kumpulan da besar...rebel la....kater kuat..garang..rebel ngn govt...jgn tinggal singapore..btol tk...tk der keje nk cari hal...da tu kene tangkap masok lock up...den da tk der future..rosak2....hidup relek...n enjoy sua la...hidup mau rock mah...lu orng mau hip hop lu peh pasal la...janji rock maintain.....sia2 jer hang tuah kasi dialog tu kat orng melayu...melayu sendiri tikam sesama sendiri...orng maju jauh...dia ketinggalan buat havoc...members biar ramai...musuh biar sikit..member biar yg boleh pakai...jgn yg tk guna..."brother" kene...lu lari...sedikit msg untuk adek sedara aku yg nk havoc balek...nie la comment aku untuk kau...LU KENTAL LA......

"angkong braper bnyk,orng besar mana pon,masok dlm sumer adek2" -bro fiz(jail warden,ex head of ......)

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2009-05-30T09:22:00.000-07:00

OK...FINALLY BLOGGED....and...finally..ive made up my mind...im not gonna stay still anymore....no one is gonna step on my head anymore...im not gonna be the person u know...the wait is over...gonna kill those animals....people gonna talk shit bout me...im gonna give them shit....u create trouble...i give u problems....dis goes to every single human being i knw....i had enuf of sitting down...with people taking advantage of me....and when i mean every single human being...i mean it...even if it is my family or even U...i had enuf of shitheads....the next person im gonna kill is no longer Maan ex guitarist...its gonna be ur ex nurfazylaa....im gonna eat him alive...dun let me see his face......talk in blog no use...all talk no action...cb la...mat motor big fuck meh....sembarang la...gua pon da lame tk sebat orng.....If i live,i will kill u,if i die,u are forgiven - Omerta(L.O.G)

im gonna hit dat barstard with his helmet....idc care...be it infront of u zylaa or not...and if den u want to leave me...be my guest...no one knows wat my heart has been feeling....it jus sux to have all dis probs...now i no longer wanna shuddup...dun ask me to shuddup k...u fucking hell shut the fuck up ppl...i dun fear anything else but God....i dun fear death...its only the end of my life...everyone is gonna die anyway...so if u are not happy with me...kill me...if not..i will give u hell....i got my ways of not ruining my record...all my cuz...my bro n sis all....we make frens with the underworld ppl....try me...see wat happen to those kids in TWL...they live in fear....so...FUCK OFF

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2009-04-29T07:06:00.001-07:00

Haiz...god..i know i did a lot of mistakes in life...might be sinful....haiz...too much problem added in my life...im tensed up....i look angry...but my heart is crying blood...i dunno y my life is a misery....everything is changing real quick...my mind is not ready....i dun have those fun life anymore..all i have is boredness....stress....sadness..misery......haiz....my head is really in pain.....problems are not only from her...from bands....frens....my future...my family(the most)........how am i gonna handle all this with two hands.....damn....seriously....im crying deep in my heart.....people just dun understand my life...neither do i...i wanna have those enjoyable life...everyone happy...i tried my best to make each and every part of my life happy,,,my frens...her...my family...i want all of them to be happy...but behind all this...its just another dark world...behind every smile there is a tear...and i smile often....im happy just to see all other ppl happy...but....me...sitting here...no one knows.....only God knows....

haiz....to Maan....:bro...let me know if u nid some help.....ill do my best to help...i know im not around these few weeks.....i hope u can take care of ur family n urself...remember....love ur family more than ur fren.....

To U...u know who u are:pls...dun add difficulties in me pls....bout just a small matter.....but..nvm..leave it...i will follow u k....ill spend my time with u....ok?just dun say im forcing myself or wat....all i knw....please be a bit flexible with me...i luv u too much to lose u.....

If my band reads dis...or who ever knows wats happening in my band....u guys can help me out rite by telling them dis situation..
To band: i never wanna seperate from Iron Child...i luv IC so much...im missing from u guys bcoz of some problems in my life which can totally change everything...i need u to understand my situation...i have to balance everything well...new things come in my life...i have to learn to balance them...give me time aite guys....i miss jamming with Iron Child...the band that make me realize i can play bass......

haiz....just saying my heart out....dun think u read dis n say u understand me.....there is more behind all this....my life hurts....my mum is sick...dad is sick...sis gonna have exams real soon....got no house to live in after dis few months...dad is working like fuck everyday....mum is doing her best to keep us together...sis is trying her hard for her PSLE....

WAT BOUT ME....SLACKING....THINKING BOUT OTHER STUFF.....SPENDING DAD's MONEY??????HAVE TO BALANCE BETWEEN FRENS N MY GAL.....im tired...all i know....i will achieve to balance all dis things....i will do my best....just wish all of those i care will be happy.....having bad pain in my head now...nvm....i got to be strong...I LUV MY FAMILY,MY SYG,MY BLOOD BROS,MY BAND......without dis...im dead....balancing all these and a few more is not an easy task...even adults sometimes cant do it...and..im only 19...with hardly any easy life...

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2009-04-23T07:57:00.000-07:00

God help me....did i make a mistake in the path i choose...im sure there is a reason behind all of this...seems like the challenge u gave is getting bigger..more deeply hurting....im doin my best to endure all this obstacles in my life...if this is some of the minor punishment for my sins...den....the real punishment would be unbearable....i hope god will show me the way to the right path in life....to overcome fear...withstand all the pains....and not to regret on wat kind of life have i chosen...i just want all my frens n family to be happy and safe...i dun wish to hurt others....but if others hurt or destroy them...then i'll kill....but...i'll try my best to keep my frens n family safe in peace.......especially my loved ones.....dun want anything to hurt them...i guess i live to make people smile in my life....but...i did hurt many...felt sorry for dat...people are hurting me now....for some reason or another....haiz...pls give me back my strength to fight back all of these misery....i dun wanna live in darkness again.....those little challenges given in my life are already a painful history...i just need the strength for much bigger challenges up ahead........i dun want the word misery to come back in my life......i will do my best to help dis family of mine....and do my best to help and cherish all those close to my heart....u ppl know who u are...Sori to all i've hurt....those who have hurt me...just be prepared aite.....

2009-04-22T11:25:00.000-07:00

Slept late to create dis one....hope u like it..listen to the song ok....must listen n watch....if cannot listen den dun watch...heee

DARING POST

2009-04-22T08:42:00.000-07:00

2 months...........i dunno wats gonna happen in the future........planned....but will it go as planned....leave it to the Only One to decide.....the only question...will i still be with u.....lets just pray n hope we stand strong....bout the past...i hate it....i hate ur past....and i hate mine....the reason why i always change my blog is dis.....i dun want to read about the past....i dun want the past to be written....the nice one maybe yes....the bad ones.....fuck em off....i open ur blog...the fen 08....just to test my fear...heart pain....hahaha...i know my heart will bleed to see ur past....but u know me...im daring enough to open and look at ur pic with ur wonderful ex...sori..."wonderful"....all this things i dared to do is only for me to face reality...not to make u sad or smth....but its for me to face it and overcome it....it will hurt...but dis will teach me to be strong as time pass by....it hurts when i got to know bout ur past....really....i did said i dun mind ur past....i dun....but...it haunts me for some reason...i now ur exs....most of them....from dat AMRI....until...DAT KHAIL....UNTIL DAT SAUFI....HAIKAL...HAZLI...sori if i got it wrong..but those are those which i think u said to me b4 or i know it myself...dis post is kinda daring...so...be strong ok....all these ex are just some cruel shits in the pasts which will haunt the present person...in this case...me...i dun wanna know bout them....but...sadly for us...we started off as frens...i know ur darkside...u know mine..it really haunts me like hell....in fact...i wanna kill those who have hurt u.....but..its the past...i have to face it....good or bad...its reality....the mission is simple...to stay strong and not let anyone interfere....i know i told u a girl contacted me after a long silence...rest assured...nothing gonna happen...dis is honesty....truth hurts....but if u overcome it...it cures with a strong comeback...sometimes when my mind is insane...i kept thinking....y did i take u when i know of ur past...infact...i hate the zylaa last time..even though u are nice to me...i hate u for ur attitude.....i hate u of ur group of frens...but the reason is...I love u of ur attitude towards me...the love is too strong for me to hate u....i love the way u care for me.....if i have the power to erase...i would erase anything before 1st Jan 09.....days before dis date is cruel...it makes me wanna hate u....but dun worry...love is much more stronger than hate...

Even i hate my past....wat i did to my ex...the way i talk to them...the way i treated them....it hurts to see me hurt other people...people are nice to me...but i fucked them off...sori for me being daring in this case...but...people like one of dis girl...izzi...a very soft type of person...caring..got me...a drunken asshole who dun give a shit bout her....and then tell her to fuck off...too bad...she was not dat strong as my bby dumb2...so...be it....this is one minor example of my past...
Rude...evil....bastard...fucked up kind of guy.....i might treat u that way last time rite??rite dumb2?? im sori....but...gd thing for u...u are strong...i respect u for that......u might be thinking...why the hell im talking bout the past...like i said..dis is a daring post...we have to be strong to face it..fight or flight...and also...u always think dat im gonna have someone else in my life....the truth is...yes...i do want another one in my life...but it is not a someone...it is a something...but...have to get my SPF first....u know wat thing is it rite..??hehe...those carbon fibre thingy...lol....
Main thing is....we are labled as 2 months....in fact..we have been understanding and learning to care for each other for more than 2 months....rite...is it 3?..no...4?....hmm...5?...6?....around there lar...think so...but i seriously wanna erase anything before Jan 09....it cuts too deep to heal in a short period of time..for me...might take like more than 10 years......im trying my best here to forget it....if it hurts me 10 years from now......and if our plans worked out 9 years from now....wat will happen on dat day 9 years down the road...so...better face it now before i struggle in the future....the only girl i want in my life is you..no one else...its u who helped me in those days...its u who understands me in those days...its u who cared bout me in those days...wat more can i ask for.....u got everything dat i ever wanted...the dream girl...maybe there is a little negative...but dis is human life rite...everyone is not perfect at all..

im sorry for not getting u anything or making a mark on the 2nd month.....cause for me...i believe...it is the heart dat counts..afterall...2 months is just another number added to the days we spent together....as an officially together kind of thing...ily...u know it rite?these three letters/words dun mean a thing if i said it for the sake of saying....its like me scaling though my guitar...have to have the feel den its so called meaningful...get it??lol.....ily bby....

turn out to be kinda big.....

lamer tk dngr....hehehe

2009-04-17T22:28:00.001-07:00

Rossa

2009-04-17T07:29:00.000-07:00

Buat laki2 cair siot..................

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2009-04-14T21:00:00.000-07:00

HAIRCUT!!!!!!

ok.....long time no blog...hahaha....ages i think nvr blog...hahaa...watever....

went off to Melaka on thurs nite...again.....lol....thought of meeting wandi...but in the end...kena paitau....he n kak nor nvr go...so i was like...damnit...less geng members..lol..went to nenek house...become so called human directory when the van came....then proceed bck to TWL to take my family..den to BB to meet the rest..so...only cousin dat is in the same geng is kak las...nvm..at least better than nothing...at BB met abg apis RR there...told me to get shades for him....okok..talk2..den..off to mlaysia....1st thing i do in the van when reach mlaysia highway....SLEEP....

when reached the house.....go to my room....suppose the room is only for bujang and the unmarried..but my other uncle n dad came in...slept at my bed n my uncle rock bed...sot jer gua kene tido luar atas kerusi kayu....

woke up the next day....slack2...play com.....den play guitar.......watch videos...smoke machine....den at arnd 3.....suppose to have kenduri....but....i help them lay one carpet....den off to bed...which i didnt woke up until 6....the kenduri ended without me knowing it started....hahahhaha.....sial aku....den...at night....talk shit...play cs...lepak...hang arnd...cause the next day is outing day...

kk...nxt day..woke up....karaoke....and karaoke...and karaoke...while waiting for them to get ready n for the van to come...wait2...den karaoke2.....van came and off to Mahkota Parade.....punya sebelah...hahahaha....its better there...Mahkota parade sux to the core.....upon reaching....my family bought this marsmello with choc or something...i dunno lar...i only know to eat only mah....hahaha....den off to eat 1st....ordered mine...then...off to buy ice kachang...ice kachang already so long i have to wait...then come bck to my table and saw no food....sot jer...den only came 1 plate when we ordered 4....den come one more...which is the wrong order...nvm..my mum ate only...my dad one come...the dish sux...den mine still havent come....my dad went to them and ask.....den came bck....den go again to ask....by then....i burst out already....i went to them giving each of them a stare right in front of their face....i wanted to beat them up....my family called me bck...those fuckers were so lucky...my aunt calm me down...my dad...like father like son..ketawer biler aku nk sebat orng..sial...den the food came..sux to the core...so...

off to shopping....shop2....got a loudness shirt and a mesh cap.....also got dumb2 a bracelet handcrafted with her name...but dat one for display only ar....u wear ur problem ar....break den i dunno...bcoz of waiting dat bracelet...my parents told me dat they know wat is going on between me and dumb2....and they know my sis pakat with me...i only laughed...so now..everytime i wanna go out...they ask..."kluar ngn matair ko pe"...quite irritating lar...wat...got gf only can go out with her ar??clazy sia...like no lipe like tat one mah...haha....ended up...my entire family got to know bout dumb2...cause webcam with her....even my mum keep looking at the com when i webcam wih dumb2....hack care...gd dat they know lar...bck to topic....when reached home....adek bought dis ipin bolster...dammit..i want one...my mum dun buy for me...pilih kasih tol....haha...adek say she dunno wat to buy when shopping...but ended buying dis ladylike shirt dat cost 40+....cb....aku nk beli 20 ketol da pikiran...sardin dia belik mahal2...but the shirt is nice...so..ok lar...lantak ko lar dek..aku nyer bubblegum ko ngan mak ko kasi game...siakz..

reached home n karaoke again lar....sampai giler....den..i play cs....until everyone sleep except for me,uncle rock,dad,kak las,abg zain.....those 3 guys talk bout ns life..their ns life....konek siak my dad stories....dajal nk mampos......den heard a strage sound...which i dun wanna describe...ada lar bunyi.....den every one fell asleep...not me n kak las...we went to smoke in the toilet....kak las a pengecut...wanted to on the lights....bo cui lar siol....i told her to off...den...its me and her in a cubicle...wth...i cannot tahan...go out...leace her...walk around smoking in the dark....took some burger....walk2...like nobody business....hahaha..den sit outside with her and talk things.....

at 7 am.....i went to sleep..hahahahaa...woke up at 12....den lepak...chilling...eat...talk crap....play cs...again...hehehe...karaoke....den...i was only waiting for the time to go home...Singapore...weee......in the van when going back...i cannot tahan my eyes...sleeping all the way....met Paul Danial at machap after his performance with Papa rock ramli sarip at KL....den got bck in the van....sleep again...i was like so fkin tired..at immigration also...my eyes are half dead....sori dumb2...msg me i oso cannot layan....many things to carry...and..eyes are down....go home....settle my things for SPF interview the next day....my hp i oso dunno where......den...off to sleep....when laying down..head vibration...i dunno i put my hp at my com desk...da ngantok..blur lar....den dumb2 was like merajok.....hahaha....got misunderstanding there......den...ape2 lar....

SPF INTERVIEW!!!!....bopian...have to wake up 6 am...but then..interview at 9...assholes....say at 8 den got to know at 9.....went there....took like a lot of test...giler babi siak,.....after test..went to lunch.......came back....test again...essay writing....den...wait...arnd 60 ppl are there....den thought can go home already...they called out the names...and tell..ok..can go home...but for some..they told to sit outside n wait...so..maybe dat one they are shortlisted after the shortlisted...mcm american idol...top 20...hahaha....den my name called...wait outside...BAIK AR.....kene tunggu lagi braper jam nk asap.....haiz..
pass up documents.....body check.....i didnt declare my scar...cause dat scar is my name...haha...naseb lepas....den..wait...wait..wait...wait..wait....until cannot wait sia...den..final interview with ASP n all higher ranking...cb...a lot of qns sia....and me...being the only few who have not gone to ns being interview on dat day also...so..i was like...freaking nervous....talk shit in the room....haha...in the end...finish..heng ar....now..waiting for the letter........went to meet dumb2 after dat....amek kau..lamer tk jumper.....nazak sak aku kene bully.......

rite dumb2....always bully me....ass u....just hope i got dis job ok.....den will work hard to get my EVO...or..lancer at least....k lar...at least..swift...makin tron sak..hahaha...who cares...if got dis one..bbdc pon quit...lol...eh...cute right the cat yesterday...later i upload the vid of CHEMONG k.....ur stupid chemong....tapi u takot...kentalan......LIKE SO FKIN KERNTALZ....wakakakaka...nnt upload lar tu vid...kental...hehe....da2...nnt merajok lagi...susah aku....24-7 majok jer nie boncit...smack aru tau...hehe....kk....peace....sat me n u k??lol...

peace all

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2009-04-08T07:48:00.000-07:00

weee.....got response from HTA....got shortlisted for SPF.....but...too bad...next week interview....and....PT test...damnit....i just got back from running.....with tikos....i can still go few more rounds....but...looking at him...headache already...nvm lar...tmr at 6am meeting him again...gonna run maybe to bukit batok...hahaha....

To dumb2....sori im going melaka again...but....wat to do...family....dun be sad ok...remember to eat..sleep....bathe....and pls3...take care of ourself....kluar jgn nk pegi tmpt2 yg i ban eh....dpt tau....u mati ar....ada mat2 nk knal2 kasi my number....nnt i reply kan ok??sroh dia knal2 ngan i dulu.....and...pls dun cry every day....if u do...i dunno wat wanna say....if i ns how....die sia....sabar k.....told u u have to be strong.......rite2??and go n get ur nitec cert!.......ily...

RND

2009-04-04T10:00:00.000-07:00

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2009-04-03T19:45:00.001-07:00

okok...update nie....update....................................leceh tol ar...

not gonna update much....too many probs to settle at home.....parents cant afford to pay dis house....have to get a small house...maybe 3 room....haiz....people already wanting dis house asap....den if sell it...we stay where?maybe at jurong..at nenek house...haiz....have to be apart from dumb2....apart from my peeps in teck whye....haiz...............so...results.....gpa..power ar....the best one ever...1.98...power eh...da tau nyer..tk dpt poly....so....really...tk dpt....so....i carry on and applied SPF..waiting for their reply...so...now...im slacking at home and making my balls grow bigger....i cant help it just to see my mum cried....my dad has been working like shit da and night....even if i did go poly.....it will be hard to pay the fees....for the mean time...i wanna find part time...but...fuck singapore...economy like shit...chinese always get it 1st....fuck u chinese....

haiz....many2 probs to settle.....IC doesnt know bout dis...but...maybe....i cant really commit to my own band...for the mean time...they just dont understand...even dat day meet jai oso he give a F face to me...i was like ...wtf is wrong wif u...crazy....u guys live easy....mom werking...dad werking...even they are werking...me? only my dad working..and its not enough.......the bank loan is still not settled.....haiz...stress....and...one more thing....bout band...im already sick n tired of playing gigs at pub/club....i wanna expose outside....not with the same people everytime in gigs...where can we go like dat....really..im sick of it...i want to expose to other shows.....not dis gigs only....

To dumb2.....if we have to stay far from each other....den....too bad lor...wat can i do...only to wait for the right time for me to own a car after my licence...the day will come aite....let me save up when i get a full time job.....if i were to stay at jurong...den....maybe i will be able to meet u often after work...but..there might be things dat we do now cannot be done then...nvm....just hope weekends are the same....if get SPF oso....weekends only im able to mit u....so...just wait and see aite.....just hope i get it....n...fuck poly....hehehehe......ok da...i da blog...hehhee...

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2009-03-30T06:16:00.000-07:00

I really feel shits are coming....really....3rd party coming into our life...okok...let me get this straight ok...

TO U SUCKERS WHO WANNA DESTROY MY LIFE AND THE PEOPLE I LOVE...IM GONNA HUNT U LIKE A PIG.....U SUCKERS ARE GONNA DIE IN HELL....TO U WHO ARE GOING TO DESTROY MY CURRENT RELATIONSHIP...IM GONNA KILL U...ESPECIALLY IF U ARE A MAT MOTOR...BUDAK RIDER...BUDAK DESIGN....LU PIKIR LU BESAR....JAGA2 JER LAR KAT ROAD....TAU2 JER KENE MASOK HOSP EH...GUA ANTI BUDAK2 DESIGN LAR CHEEBYE!!!!I REALLY WANNA FACE OFF WITH THESE PEOPLE...IF I KNOW WHO THEY ARE....U LITTLE FAGGOTS....IF U GOT BACK UP....I GOT TROOPS...I'VE KNOWN MANY DIFF PEOPLE OF DIFF GROUPS...I GET ALONG WITH MOSTLY HEADS....NOT LITTLE WIMPS DICKHEADS....

FUCK THEM ALL

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2009-03-27T10:04:00.000-07:00

A picture speaks a thousand words...im just too lazy to blog lar..some pics i edited...just bored...nice?it not nice oso i dun care...its not like im a pro....if nice....thnk u lar...haha

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2009-03-26T06:13:00.000-07:00

Today power....BTP at 10.30...woke up at 9.30...dumb2 msg n called...hahahaha.....den...go bath....took a bread...run off to the bus stop....was rushing.....upon reaching.....TAIK BTOl.......BTP at 10.45....salah info....kerpal singh btol...den finish dat round...went back home...not even 10 mins of sitting....rushed back to bbdc for another round of BTP....dis time...a quick one psl da confident......den go out....got 1hr 10 mins to BTT....

So....walked alone to Bukit Gombak MRT to go to DBS....deposit 30 bucks....for PDL....Confident sak aku.....BTT lom amek da nk pikir apply PDL.....den walk slowly back to bbdc.....still got 30 mins.....sat down...met Joshua a CDSS fren....talk crap.....den got to know my classmate whom i called a crazy bitch last time crazy bout me,worked at bbdc...hahaha..asshole...dun even want to see her....den went up to TP room..BTT!!!......gave my IC...den...best thing...Instructor said "i cant find ur name,go down print a booking statement"....me being dumb....go down...print....went up....he said"ooh...ok...correct...but i cant find your name...nvm mind.,...u sit 1st"....sit n sit....he talk n talk...den..."ok...u may start"

i was like....fuck u oldman...wat bout me....he repeatedly said...u sit first ar.....i was like...nnbcb...want to kena beating ar...i was fucked up....den at last..he check his system and realise.....he didnt saw my slip...wrongly look....fucker...now like 5 mins already gone...and i havent log in...i was fucked up n quickly do....n...guess wat happened...

within 10 mins i finished the test and with confident i dun want check all and end the test...and there is the result....i passed.....so i was like...ok..wth....so went out of the room..dun feel happy for passing but happy for ending it quick...haha...make my PDL....and then...went off to meet maan at City hall

Went home...dad asked me to go prac 2 or 3 times a week.....dia sponsor...ok lar tuh....bagus jugak...cepat sikit aku pass...hahahaha....but dunno how much he will help lar....

I really miss u dumb2....i cant meet u dat often....but...always remember ok....i have my evil ways...hHAHAHHAHA.......ok...ily bby...and pls...stop thingking about dat fucker....if u keep thinking of him...there is no use im over here rite...dat kind of person should be dead....useless...da2...all i know is to be happy and enjoy my life with you....tunggu dpt lesen ok???im working hard on it...hehe...ily

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2009-03-25T10:45:00.000-07:00

hmm.....tmr...BTT!!!or should i say...few more hours BTT!!!dammit....just hope i pass it...cause me being me with last minit revision.....haha...

Just finished chatting with my dumb2...now got nothing to do....should be sleeping...but i feel hungry...again....i dunno y im so hungry dis days....dumb2 said im gemok....crazy.....so thin like plywood say i gemok...*dia yg gemok*...hahha...ape?tk leh terima per??wakakkaka....diam ar...

kk...bck to topic...i dunno wat to do know....got no job..no school.....need moeny for expenses....haiz...economy really down..i cant be working in the fnb cause it wont be up to my expense...i nid to pay a lot of things and the pay in fnb really sux....if it is 5 dollars..im ok....but 3.50??ill be wasting my time....even 4.10 dollars ill be wasting my time....i will have to pay for transport money n stuff....haiz...wat to do...no available job yet...there is lar some crappy jobs...but..dun want...haiz...cant go out much with her as i got no money...i cant be letting her paying for my expenses rite....im not dat kind of ass...if once a while ok lar...but if like topping up of ezlink n stuff..i dun think so..unless i really needed it...ill do my very best not to use her money....where to put my face....even sometimes go eat she pay for me...i dun feel like a man....i feel like a barstard using a gals money...i dun mind using my money for her,....but she using her money on me??i really dun feel gd bout it...im prepared to starve if i have to...thnx a lot bby....for helping me....

To Maan Rosewood:Aku rasa ape yg ko korbankan tuh adalah perkara yg paling baik ar....terharu aku dengar ko buat gitu...aku seriously respect ko bro..walaupun depan ko mcm sial....aku actually segan ngan kau...ko nyer orng tk sejahat mcm orng2 mcm aku nie...ko korbankan kegembiraan ko untuk keluarga kau.....its really a big thing to do..i really respect u bro...jiwa biar kepada keluarga....nie baru jihad.....kk...ape2 bende yg aku boleh bantu...bilang yer...walaupun aku nie skrng mlm bz sikit..hehe...

To my dumb2:all the things i want to say in dis post are already up there...except for....dis.....ILY!lalalallalala......hehe....ok..have to admit...i am hyper when i get milo....nono...im not getting one now....just saying...damn...seems like im reading ur mind...haha..wat only aku....right dumb2??hmmm....btol,btol,btol....pray for me so dat i can pass my car licence fast aite....ily...didnt i say dat already....nvm...wont die to say it again....ily.....shit...i said it again....da lar...ily...

*blank actually*

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2009-03-23T06:42:00.000-07:00

Hmm....life has been extraordinary for me...if the spelling is correct...haha...long time no skool so im like a bodo already....haha....been through many waves in life....huge wave....small wave....no wave....hahaha...figure it out urself....she wrote of a flashback in time during her npcc....now my ncc life....here goes...

Sec 1...met zul my classmate...asked him if we wanna join npcc or ncc....with full confidence he said...NCC lar....NCC seniors were there pulling us in....hahaha...ok lor..so sign up for it....we got it...but zul being himself....pembelot...changed to NPCC....sucka...hahaa...me continue with life in green.....

!st year.....still kerntal.....dunno wat is life...met some people...gangster....abg2...kakak2.....hahaha....i remembered my 1st few weeks people there asking me to follow them for a gang clash...me being dumb...followed...but in the end..police came..and everybody was gone....haha....express class was really boring...the people were like only studying2...NCC people??only me and 2 other chinese mates....us being express....was always liked by the teachers....EXCEPT FOR U KNOW WHO RITE....haha....me......the only black sheep in both express class....always kena caught want....rioting...fighting.....many2 more...best thing...my ass has never been canned...see....gd rite....biasa jugak....

I was the only bastard in ncc who was like by the 1st batch of senior...followed by 2nd 3rd batch....i dunno y....i came out with exciting ideas which those asses could not think about...hahaha....seriously....i was only sec one and they said they wanted me in charge of ncc...so...i was always incharge of my fellow sec one mates....

Sec 2 was a year older...gone through many cases in school...smoking..smoking...fighting...same old stuff...hahah...me when not in ncc...are always not liked at skool....remember that time me and shayfiq fought with 8 seniors at canteen...i was badly beaten...i fell...dats the only time i really fell when in fight...then there was a time i and my frens really fought outside...being me who cared bout "brothers"....saw my bro left behind and was beaten up...so...i being the only person who turned back....go through aroung 10 people or more...and i was really badly beaten....my eyes bleed....specs broke...still all i cared was bout that bro...haha....den saw him dead already kena beaten....fought our way through in my secondary life....

But in NCC...diff case...i was liked always....teachers all wanted me to be incharge of NCC....but i didnt managed to get it cause a new teacher came in and took the two chinese asses to be in charge...guess wat happen....seniors was furious.....even...my teacher......SAF Encik......was angry....he called me personally....and talked to me at staff room....he seriously said sorry as he was no longer in charge....the rest of NCC wanted me to be incharge but dat fat ass TAN BOON HOCK choosed the other two cause..u know i know lar....hahaa...but its ok....my role in ncc...freelance!!!haha...

Came to Sec 3 Combined camp.....i n zul was incharge of a group...zul being overall incharge was bz...so i took care of my group alone...hehehe......told u....cadets all liked me....i always let them choose between the so called master sergent of me....im lower ranking btw....and...the head incharge will always have dat ass faced when the whole entire ncc cadet choose...hahaha..sucka.....kk....lets go in deep with sec3 camp....

Led my group...alpha 1....still remember....got npcc and also st john...1st thing i told them....to be as a group...work as one...no fight or u have to deal wif me...i let u enjoy....dun take advantage......and they agreed....so...we worked as a group..we finished everything in order and in speed of light...even...NPCC teacher...was scolding the whole camp for not being in schedule....but....only my group was safe....hahaha...all u stupid NCO kena scolded....not me...i got praised!!haha...kerek ar abeh....NPCC teacher scolding all other higher ranking...work slowly summore....kental...there....was dumb2...incharge of a group next to me.....hahaha...she was the most kental ever....i only watched her ass since then...really....thought her how to steal food in the night which she is not capable of....but back then....i dun look at girls of my school.....dun care bout them...haha..really sia...so...dumb2 was always getting bullied in camp...and wat did i do...stare at her ass only lar...in camp...who scolded me??i think no one rite...haha...i woke every one up by asking each NCO to go to the room,on their walky talky.....den....i shout....WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!....me always as usual.vulgars..hahaha...

I dunno y...my secondary school life.....i dun care bout relationships...so what..u like me..i like u..stead ar....wth....my mind is not matured enough....i wanna know wats life..i my life was hard..hahaha...end my secondary school life with fighting....and fighting...even in ncc....beat people up in my ncc boots....sedap jer kene jamah...wohooo....see....how bad am i....but how gd my reputation in my cca is.....

NOW,its a miracle to love someone dat much which i dun even care bout her in my secondary school life...last time if i saw her pass by my class...only thing i looked at...ass.....haha...sori to say...talk to her also only like...."ar..k.."but one thing for sure...during dat camp...she laughed a lot....me being a joker...always make people laugh and smile....

To dumb2....remember i always said...most of my predictions is rite...now then i only know of it rite...actually....it happened during dat camp too....seriously...ppl may think i make dis up...but i know..dis is real...secrets spilled.....during dat time..in canteen...where we are having our lunch....i dunno...my heart said...."aku kacau2 bully2 nie budak...sekali nnt aku dpt dia in a few years time mcm mana siak...but....lek sua lar aku nk amek dia..kerntal"...
i said something like dat...it might not be exact...but i know i cursed u...haha...its really a miracle.....to get someone like u...a gal...which i have no idea dat i could be with...and the person who i dun even care if u die.....haha...but now...for sure...i will always care for u...Nurfazielah...the name which only remind me of my sec 3 camp...and sorry again...ass....during dat time i was such a bastard....u know rite...hahha..now..its a diff story....i will care and love u just like my own family..u know wat i mean rite...sometimes we do misunderstood each other..but...its life...no matter wat i said to u(the negative side)....the only fact is ily and i only want to see you happy in life....till then...upload satu pic lar....

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2009-03-21T08:10:00.001-07:00

IronChild got a new vox....just tried him out just now.....test run dia sikit....haha...he came late.....lol.....nvm......quite a tough guy.....da bis ns mah....manners wise.....ok.....attitude wise....ok....better than previous vox...haha...

Vocal wise....he need to brush up.....Liz seriously wants us to take him....he is seriously confident Fuzz will do well....he is helping fuzz out...haha....jamming just now...was not dat fun....played songs dat we never played b4.....isi atau kulit...smoke on the water...and hear this people...IRON CHILD FINISHED THE WHOLE SONG OF SAKURA FROM ROCKVIVAL.....i too was shocked jai played like dat...hahaha...watch out for improvements of Iron Child....ok...enough of bands....

now..my life.....

Since im jobless...i realise...my attitude changed...i tend to be sensitive....hot headed....like a beast...i really hate myself dis way.....i hate to sit at home too much cause i will tend to get stressed with my parents around me...everything is just not right for them.,.but for sure...ill be ok in a while....once i get a job...and...im really2 sori to my dumb2....i created problems for her.....and im really in a wrong....i dunno wat the hell is happening to me...but im sure dis wont last long....i mean my attitude....i love my old ways...being happy with u...looking back at those phrases....Money really makes people crazy ar...how i wish the world live without money...is everyone happy?or...people are going to be more crazy....hmm...i really hate myself for making those problems to dumb2..its just dat im stressed up at home....people in my house are making me crazy man....they are killing me slowly...

dumb2....im sori if i have being rude to u dis while....im just so stressed up...and sometimes wat u said can just spark up a fire to me...even if it actually is nothing...i know im sensitive dis days....im just too stressed at home....everything is a living hell to me..i can be ok with u around...but if dat is i do not quarrel with u..if i quarrel with u abit...dats it for my mood for the day....haiz.....i always wanted to spend my time with u on weekends...since weekdays we cant meet for long.....im jealous actually...watching ppl spending time with their partners weekdays...like...in the afternoon...as they can spend quite a while with each other..but with u...i only can at night...only for a short while...its bcoz u are working...and this is where my irritating parents come in...i dunno why....they keep nagging if im home late...10pm late is it?if 11pm i can understand lar....cause i also dun wanna go home dat late...u get wat i mean?dats y its difficult for me to mit u weekdays at night..but i will always have my ways to mit u....dats y weekends i wanna spend my time with u....since we have more time....saturday u half day...sunday no werk....i hope u get wat i mean...its not dat i dun want to meet u on weekdays...its just bout dis problem dat i cant meet u dat often on weekdays....but sometimes maybe also im tired...or the reason is i want u to rest...but...i know dat wont work cause u will be meeting su if not meeting me...i hope u can like one day on the weekdays...not to go lepak with me or su...n have a rest at home...just one day in a week...the rest u can go out lar....cans??if u dun want den its ok...but im really sorry for my attitude dis few days....but...everything is ok now rite?i guess...cause...tmr is 22..rite?few more mins from now...thnx to u i realised my mistakes....ily...

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2009-03-18T19:21:00.000-07:00

The song is hearts on fire........n truly now.....my ass is on fire...........smalam mkn terlalu bnyk chilli padi siak aku........main giler.....biasa jugak.....no chilli is like a kentalan food 4 me...i like hot n spicy food......hot....hot.....my ass is super hot after the session in the toilet.....woooooo....think its getting better now......haha....talk bout ass......ass sia....

Yay2.....i learnt 2 new songs yest......gagasan from rockers....and sakura from rockvival......dis sat bring them to jam.......insyaallah bleh......hahahaha....im looking foward to dis sat jam with Fuzz whom i have never met b4.....testing his vocals.....wakakakaka....hmmm.....ok...im broke.......left money for jamming only....den im gone......im sick of cracking my head when it comes to money.....

I Miss my dumb2........i wish i can spent all my time with her...but dun want lar.....nnt dia muak....kan3.....hehehhee........so...better not to be that close....but then not to be dat far.......get it?wakakakkaa.....just a short post lar.....later if got some more i edit ok.......dumb2...i want u......nono...like dis....DUMB2!...I CHOOSE U!!eh salah...I WANT U.....tu pokemon siol...hahaha.....peace

2009-03-17T01:25:00.001-07:00

hahaha

2009-03-16T08:24:00.001-07:00

Sumer takot nampak.....hahaha..yerlar2...lu orang nyer psl....wa tk delete lar.....
Amek nie!!!

OKOK.....gig done with carrie......so very the many"dugaan"....kecik ati....besar ati....sakit ati....gi mati tk nk???ape sajer lar.....perform untok band lain jer kirakan da tk amek kisah psl band sendiri...perangai adek2 plak....naseb lar sumer misunderstanding jer....lau tak...satu2 aku ketok kasi kluar brinjol....

IC already got a new vocalist...Fuzz from X-japan(singapore nyer)...trying him out dis week....and i seriously got no more money to jam....can Iron Child understand my situation?or they will think im making excuses....let us see...u guys are witness ok??jammed with Carrie dat time....not even a single cent i came out...y?cause i got no money....lets see ok....is IC like the original IC who used to help each other...or u guys have changed....last time...most shortages for the band i will cover it up....now im shortage of money...will they cover me up?lets wait n see...

Guess i can now make dis blog unprivate.....or maybe i should wait for a few more days to think about it...haha...lalalla...i seriously need a Part Time job...need to pay for a lot of things....im so dead.....i cant really think much now....tired of thinking i guess

To Maan:Sori bro aku tk dpt join gathering...gal2 tu sakit lar.....n...aku pon rasa aku penat giler ar....haha...miss out the fun i guess...lagi2 ngan Nam Jahanam....lau ko bbl ngan im....ckp ngan dia tk mo step bagus lar....rambut da mcm siak....ada ati nk kacau orng lain...hehehe...tapi kan bro...aku mcm nk cool down kejap ar on gigs n stuff....nk relek jap...kasi tenang pikiran aku dulu....selesaikan satu2 masalah ar.....

Finally...i know u r reading rite......waiting 4 me to say.......To ehem2....

Finally to Ehem2....asik batok jer part dia tau....

lagi skali k....

Finally to my baaaaaaaaaaaaaa...........aik....ter drag lak...tk leh2

Finally to my one nnnnnnnnnnn.......drag lagi....

okok...stop it....

N To u bby......we had a few rough ride together eh....hahhaa...wat to do....once with me....surely have up n down one....lau kita happy....we will be very happy....lau down jer kan....u know i know jer lar...i know i did many mistakes with u....like i told u last time...i failed in my relationships....here comes the reason y i did dat.....bcoz i couldnt bother bout wat the gal is gonna do....n i can easily play a fool with them.....but....with u.....i changed....i have thought over everything....n i hope we really can go there...u know rite....the 9 more years thingy....hahah....im no longer dat fool to be fooling around....n i hope u have the same mindset too....im sorry for my mistakes..no one is perfect rite....thinking back....i hate ur past....n i hate mine....dats y i want to forget bout the past...and dun want anything from there to come n destroy our plans..im sure u get wat i meant rite.....n....im sorry bout yest at the gig....the gal just suddenly come beside me.....i was hugging azri only....i didnt touch her....kai did.....not me....kai eh.....hahaha...sampai i terpanjat kat atas speaker...i wouldnt do such things to break ur heart...no other girls will be able to take me away from u...and i wont let any guys lay a finger on u....if anyone did lay...hes gonna be dead...i mean if those flirty2 barstard lar...ill kill him i tell u.....cause i really dun want to lose u...we know each other inside out....rite?hmm...eh...is dis post long enough??ke nk lagi??lain kali jer lar i update lagi k....ily........heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

laaaaaa

2009-03-12T21:15:00.000-07:00

NK UPDATE NIE!!!!!!!!WOHOOOOO.....IM DELETING MY BLOG IN A FEW DAYS......too lazy to blog anymore....

hehe

2009-03-07T18:52:00.000-08:00

The Saloon

Spotlightkid,MiminSpider

Easyrider Apiz,MiminSpider

Nenek gi saloon dok!!steady ar nek

HE...my last day here in kampung.....enjoyed here..although many of my cuzzins are not here.....when reached...i was bz sleeping in van...everyone was already out...left me in the van..basket...den Abg apiz knocked at my head..asking me to wake up....out of the van...super surprised!!th place was extended....built in saloon....tempat lepak extended....wah!!!....go in the house...fuyooo....mcm chalet....our room changed to be a LAN room...dats y got internet....web cam with dumb2 yesterday...hahaha...cool sia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i love my kampung..haha...pics will be uploaded once im bck in Singapore..and in the saloon...got spa somemore...haha...the house has really been extended.....future plans...to create a jamming studio...me and my uncle will share money to buy the stuffs.....hahaaha...

To dumb2....i really miss u....yest i dreamt bout u all the way...dreamt we go mac..go here n there....haha...i really hope one day i can bring u here...u wont feel like in kampung..the place is already super clean.....and i really mean super clean....mcm kat chalet siot....haha...ill be back by 9pm today...still kinding ur kerepek ubi....i didnt go out much....only went to follow nenek go pasar to buy food...dats all....no time to go shopping...waiting 4 uncle and abg apiz to wake up now so dat can karaoke again....basket..yest they sleep late and talk bout me sia...say i cannot play pub lar bcoz sleep early...haha...who cares...ill try to get 4 u something....ok?but tk der bende branded2 nyer lar....kita bkn nyer gi shopping centre pon...ok??tmr ill meet u...ill take u from boon lay....haha...ok...chiowz...ily

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2009-03-04T23:08:00.000-08:00

haiya...long time no blog......haiz...dunno wats happening to me....feel so down...maybe bcoz of money....maybe bcoz of other things......i dun want to be dis way....but...i cant control.....BUT...i will control it....just dat i need to let out everything somewhere...maybe in jamming studio...watever it is...i would like to say sorry to those i have hurt...especially to my dumb2....i dunno wat has got into me...possessed i think....am listening to Osairis janji....i love dat song till death.....

To dumb2....im really sorry for wat i have did....really...this is me at times...not much of a problem...but i will go n create one...dumb shit rite...i really feel bad hurting u.....and i didnt know wat the hell i was thinking.....but rest assured....i wont break my promise to u.....

as of dat...here's the lyric...Janji - Osairis.....My guru...

Janji

Terbuka mata,tiada apa yg dapat ku lihat
Ke alam baru,Yg akan aku tempuhi
Pada kalimah yg aku janjikan padamu
Ku peggang teguh menjadi peggangan hidupku

Ku mencari,apa ertinya ku disini
Hidupku hanyalah,untuk memenuhi janji

Walaupun pahit atau manisnya perjalanan hidup ini
namun tidak akan ku memungkiri janji ku ini

Andainya tanpa mu disisi ku kehilangan arah
Hidupku ini hanyalah sia-sia saja
Ku pohon kan keampunan sebelum ku menutup kan mata ini
Segala dosa yang ku lakukan
Semasa hayatku ini

(solo)

Andainya tanpa mu disisi ku kehilangan arah
Hidupku ini hanyalah sia-sia saja
Ku pohon kan keampunan sebelum ku menutup kan mata ini
Segala dosa yang ku lakukan
Semasa hayatku ini

Semasa hayat ku ini......................................................

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End

ILY DUMB2...peace

wei...ape nie...

(cute lar dia)

(rambut lawa seh)

(dun sad k bby...i wont be long)

(Spiders)

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2009-02-25T05:50:00.000-08:00

Gd thing.....attachment nk abis...bad thing.....no work no money.....gd thing......i am free of school stress...bad thing...im gonna be bored..........aiyo.....mati loh gini.....wa tarak duit apa wa mau buat.....lu olang bilan sama wa......

Seriously dudes....i got to find a new PT job.....if not i die.....no money no honey sia like dis.......appy cathay lagi ar.....GV ker.....hmmm.....cialat......BTT on 26 mar....fuck...lazy sia wanna go bbdc....ppl are like crazy to go...but im like so lazy to go...im taking my own sweet time to get the licence....who cares....its not like im gonna buy a car....hmmm...but i did book 4 practice lesson b4 my BTE.....haha/...siow rite...just to ensure i will pass.....so far i learned something in the bbdc theory lesson...which is to daydream in class.....wahahaha...i nvr read the book at all sia.....nvm..ill make sure ill get my licence...my way....no licence nvr die wat...big fuck meh got licence....so called abg2 lar tuh....abg2 lobang....now im in need of money....got no more money.....haiz.....wat am i gonna do...............some one help me find job...i seriously got no time to find...unless after attachment.....

To my little cute dumb2.......Ily....dats all...hahahaha....short n sweet....just like u.....

To MR...gd luck on 28..insyaallah aku tron lau tk der halangan...wat the time ar??

btw......dumb2...help me to link antoo and syarmila can??mls ar..u kat keje kan tk der keje.....tolong can??mls ar nk link2..pkai laptop irritating......

PEACE ALL......

Happy

2009-02-23T06:29:00.000-08:00

22nd feb...started off with a great smile when i woke up...gig day mah....but fucked up by my dad.....dun wish to talk bout it....both of u guys here know bout dat stupid ass thing.......

went to gig.....performed............sucks........IC did not do well.........really....sucks.....missed a lot......i dun think the crowd liked it......but....nvm....we hate club 6 equipments anyway.........met someone who said she did not want to come......she really make my day......i told u....my prediction is mostly correct...rite??hehhehee......i knw u cant bear to leave me.....so......i got u now......i must take gd care of u.....make sure u enjoy ur life......one thing...just go tell dat sucker off cause he dun have u anymore....and just hope he knows wat he is doin.......but....i wont do anything like wat he did to u......he dun deserve to be called a guy.....or even...human....all i know is to take care of u and the ppl around me.......ily

to maan.....sabar ehk bro...mcm maner ko tenang kan aku...gitu jugak kau kene buat kat diri kau......aku tau kau penyabar...ko boleh make it maan...dugaan ko lagi rabak dari aku.......tapi ttp ko maseh hidup....kau tabah n redah pada apa yg ko dilanda.....aku salute orng mcm ko maan....mungkin ko tk dpt bersama seseorang tu psl orng tu tk cukop layak untuk dapat kau....tapi lau da jodoh tk ke mana....sayang memang sayang.....tapi lau Yang Berkuasa tk izinkan..ape kan daya....kita leh sabar jer....ape2 pn....jgn nk isap rkk or minum.....sikit ari tu da cukop....dats the last of me wathing u smoke on the water......if in need....call....ill do my best to help...dari segi wang memang aku tk der...dari segi naikkan semangat....insyaallah aku boleh......

back to u dumb2......i really luv u from the bottom of my heart.....i dun care bout ur past.....and i dun care bout my past....i hope we can forget our bitterness of our past together.....we are a new person now.....lets build up our future n not crying bout our past k.....ill help u in life.....ill also help myself....watever happens....ill be with u......i mean my words.....

the coolest part....for the both of u pictures in my life.....biler mau bowl???ke pool ker....antoo da sakit ati kalah ngan gua.....hahaa...we enjoy together arite...together with su...jai..n the rest of the geng.....u two are the light in my life...remember i used to live in darkness??hahahhaha....lamer peh cerita...really....i love all these pics in my life....

Zylaa(of course lar,my no.1 bby...)
Maan Rosewood
Jai Lanun
Nol
Su(for lecturing n making me see wat dumb2 feels)
The rest of IC band(u guys are the music)
Those frens who are not disebut....u guys know who u are....if u heard my problems....den...i luv u guys too...

Last of all...the most impt...my fam...wat ever they have done...i appreciate it....they dun nid to know how i feel....just know dat i love them....

one most impt person of all whom i think he can read as i am typing dis....Kepada Aruah Pak Itam.....dengan penuh ikhlas hati mimin berterima kasih lagi sekali atas dorongan kepada mimin selama hayat pak itam...mimin tak sempat mintak maaf atas kesalahan mimin...mimin,wandi dan semua saudara marah dan anak buah pak itam sentiasa ingat perjuangan pak itam untuk kesenangan kita semua....Semoga Allah mencucuri rohnya dan letaknya didalam golongan orang yang beriman.....Al Fateha.....

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2009-02-17T06:30:00.000-08:00

So now i know....since he meant so much to u...lets keep it short n simple...tell me after u read dis post ok....if u have made up ur mind to go on with ur past.....den...i wish u all the best....thnx 4 keeping me company dis few months...just note one thing...once u have gone back.....dun remember anything....4get me...just note dat i didnt exist in dis world.....its normal to me someone leaving me after they told me the 3 letter word..dun think of finding me if he break ur heart again....i wont be there in ur life....i thought u were the one....but....im wrong again...dis tears dat fall doesnt mean a thing now....i told u..it is difficult to make my tears fall.....u scratched my heart dat day...now...u really broke it again...so....maybe dis is it....maybe dis is the end....end of dis blog.....im deleting it away soon....i knew u would change if u meet him again....guess im right....im right to be angry when u meet him....but u just wouldnt care.....u even lie to me by saying u want only me.....i felt ive been played around....U want him more....stop lying to urself.....a bass guitar couldnt fight with a bike....so....made ur decision??im fully prepared to live my life just the way i am...alone...without any gals by my side...and dun u worry about how im feeling....it doesnt matter if i cry or laugh...just know dat all those i said were real and i never even thought once of playing with ur heart...im a man of my words....I got my pride...I am able to stand up for myself and those i care for....but if they leave...its up to them....i could only say farewell...u choose him as u know him longer....

Maan....ko paham aku kan....ko pon pernah nampak aku kene tinggal kan...ko tau lar ape nk buat....ko dulu bagi aku semangat untuk terus berjuang...mungkin nie da takdir aku...aku pn tk tau ape aku buat salah kat dunia nie...Rockers pon boleh menitiskan air mata...tapi bro...ape2...pahit ke manis aku telan.....ko n jai yg paham aku.....ape yg aku harapkan tk selalu aku dpt....

selamz pada insan2 yg aku btol2 sayang....

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2009-02-16T07:43:00.000-08:00

IM ANGRY LIKE FUCK......not bcoz of her...BCOZ OF ME.....Y THE FUCK I HAVE DIS FEELING..called JEALOUSY.....im trying my very best to fight it....im not losing....i will win soon....dis stupid feeling causes me to create trouble between people.....is there such thing called jealousy management programme??fuck it man...really...fuck....sometimes i feel like ending everything.....but i dun want it to end...ending bcoz im jealous??wth....am i nuts or wat if i did dat....pls god give me the power go stop dis thing....i know i have made uncountable sins...but pls...i dun want anything to end now except for dis jealousy...at least lower it....im sick and tired of the feeling....my heart is as hard as iron....no wonder im in iron child...nonsense....i just want my happiness back....from the day im able to think..until now...all i ever did was to solve problems........mostly of others....but not mine....haiz.....i dunno if i can say dis....but...if i die....is it better or worse....better cause i got nothing to take care of...worse cause i havent fully change myself for the better...aiyo2....manyak pening leh.....bui soong...bui tahan...peace

wee...

2009-02-14T09:43:00.002-08:00

went out with dumb2 today....she got me a white billabong wallet which is $40+....crazy ar spending ur money on me like dat...ksiow....but thnk u 4 dat...sori i only got u like fruit tarts...lol....i got no time to go even lot one....sori yer....went to pool....bosan sak ngan jai n wandi...jln mcm pengantin.....sot jer gua....da tunggu lamer....hhaha....but end up with wandi breaking up.....stupid gal....luckily im ok with dumb2....rite?its not totally her fault...maybe...im too concern.....i know im also at fault....but since u made a promise not to do anything...i will hold on to dat...and...i really respect ur ex telling u to ask me if u can follow him....once a while its ok lar for me...but if often dat one i dunno.....i dun mind if he contact u....i know my face will change...but...it is just a reaction i cant control...cause..i dun want to lose u....but..im ok now...BUT...the only thing im still not steady with is when someone fetch u frm somewhere bringing u here n there....the feeling is like painful i must say....and also the worry is there..but i wont stop u if u really need to....im sori to say but u should understand my side...i dunno wat is the mindset of those mat motor....but i dun feel right when u hop on a guy's bike and go travelling...maybe with u ex 4 me its ok...cause i knw he's just a fren rite.....dat one i can give way...but pls tell him not to main giler on the road when u are on his bike k?jgn selit2 giler2 can??i still dun agree if other guys bike....only wif his bike for me its ok..

as for u going to clubs...just make sure u know ur limits....i trust u....so dun break it....hmm...as for me....im starting to listen to metalcore/hardcore/deathcore again....i like only some lar...not all....but still...i hate their vocals...hahahhaa...they suck man.....im also starting to hear black metal again....actually da lamer ar....hahaa....the tension could be at ease a little listening to dis kinda songs....hahaha...i miss moshing with jai...i remember kicking someone's dick in a moshpit at Baybeats...lol....a chinese guy,....down in a moshpit....lying on the floor...hahahaha....beat up a bangla too....dunno wat the hell he is doing there....then mosh together with a hardcore chinese maniac......both of us are like hitting each other real hard...but he came to me and peace...haha..mosh mah...relek lar....den there was a time i was in the middle of the ring of the moshpit.....alone....really in the middle...and the circle close up on me...managed to spin kick some of the people....wakakaka...but in the end...i fell on the floor...jai the most bastard of all...."min, mosh ar"...me:"sembarrang".....jai:'amik kau'....he pushed me in the moshpit and i have to fight my way out....coz dat time the moshpit was quite big.....hahaa....miss those times....bodysurfing....1st time bodysurf i was like wat the hell....bring me down assholes....who planned it....JAI....hahaha..busted sia dat guy.....mosh at malex vid shoot oso best....Rosewood asked..who start the moshed....ppl say...Bayul....den Bayul say....no lar him lar....i smiled...hahahaha...kater metal mah...gesek sikit ar...hahaha...im going to hardcore/deathcore gigs....

and also to u...u dun worry bout me k...im quite used to moshing...i know its more dangerous than clubbing....but its my way of letting off steam...haha...dun think its like a revenge to hit u back...i just miss those times....but i dun mosh often...kejap jer...penat oi....high sak rasa...tk ya gi minum..hhaaha....i'll take care of myself....i wont get hurt badly lar k...and most impt i wont hurt u...if i have....im really sorry.....maybe im too stressed up n couldnt think straight...as for my gig...i wont force u to come....but u would really2 bring me the confidence n willingness to perform if u come.....actually just now...fizah n jai was tired...dats y they are like attitude...but u see jai....normal rite...its only your thoughts lar...jai oso joke around with u rite....fizah is too tired...she didnt even talk much....my frens are not like dat....i know them....even maan knows bout it cause confirm dia ngah baca nie.....he wont look down on u lar....its only a mistake that humans make.....no other people knows bout dis case....so u relek aite....ill back u up even anyone try to create shit wif u....and one more thing i realise....PANJANG PER POST...ily...peace...

and oso to maan...aku tk tau lar blog kau tu ape angin....pening jugak brain aku....lol...n...ada ape hal...sori aku tk call kau...confirm ko ngah tido.....aku pon da layu...tapi upload gambar satu2.....facebook rosak cm siak...hahaha....ko tc bro....jumpe time gig aite....

haiz...

2009-02-11T06:45:00.000-08:00

Dumb2 only..........

Ive told u....if problems come...they come straight at one go....haiz....y do u really have to go n follow him?i really2 felt the pain sia....i thought after im being sacarstic u wont follow him....but in the end...u did...dun say i lookdown on myself...cause dis is the fact...the fact that i dun own a bike nor a car...or even licence...i know u miss those times riding rite??wat?by saying u talk to ur racing frens bout me can relax me down??the fact is u already went wif him...i dun care wat u talk about...u know i dun like if u hop on a guys bike...fair enough i dont own one..but do u really have to go dat far to actually scratch my heart??im actually not angry wif u...but im dissapointed with ur actions...imagine i saw u on the road on his bike or any other person bike...ill tell my self im a letdown to you...i cant give u the easier way to travel...futhermore...dat person is ur ex...i know i dun have a say if he want to meet u or wat..im just so called..new....wat if ur ex gal saw him??wat does she have to say??if she say ok...shes fine wif it...den i dunno wat to say bout myself...maybe im just so jealous..or im just a big time loser...i promise not to leave u...but the way u are doing dis is like u are the one who is gonna leave me....if u really do...den...im totally speechless like the mute...bcoz of dis thing...u dunno wat did i do and wat happen today...no nid to ask me..k?all i want to give u is happiness but u obstruct me dis way...making the both of us unhappy...y?u told me b4..if u did something wrong..tell u rite??should i tell u now??or is it obviously obvious??and im the one who called su...and actually her sister or brother did not saw u...it is just a make up story created by me..really dissappointed..

Last time fai msg me and u were like angry or so called jealous...but then i didnt contact her...i even never say hi to zyzii when at ECP....Zyzii got nothing to do wif me but not to hurt u...i didnt even say hi..even though u wont noe if i met her or wat..but then..on your side...u r able to even go n meet ur EX...ride on his bike summore....and he fetch u frm work........dat time u were sick and im in my frens van..wanting to pick u up at ur workplace...u dun let me..meaning wat...u are ashamed dat some company's van is picking u up..actually u should be..cause its not even my van...and its a van..not a bike...since u already met him today...wat about tmr...nxt week...or even if i shifted house to Teban??haiz...i will fight for u if i have to....if they want to let me have a taste of the helmet...ill show them what is called a 6 string bass guitar....i wont break my promise...i wont leave u...but will u??i hope not...this is really a test to me....i dunno if u still want to continue to meet dat so called fren of urs....and continue scratching my heart until its gone..or are u going to heal it 4 me??get my point?

now..this thing make me hate mat rempits...i dun care how good u guys are....if u guys are those rempits in a group who thinks u can take anything or anyone just whacking ur throttle....den...be prepared to ans those questions when u meet with an accident...scumbags...i rather flip in a car n not get serious injury rather than flip on a bike and get my head off.....u scumbags think its cool rite...i love my life...i treasure my life and those in my life....peace all

STRESS

2009-02-10T07:32:00.000-08:00

DIS FKIN WORD WILL ALWAYS APPEAR...."STRESS"...Firstly....no money.....den need to go out...wat u say....stress....nxt...need to go work everyday...wat u say....stress.....nxt....after ITE want to go poly or ns.....dunno which one...wat u say...stress....gig coming up...havent learnt the songs...wat u say...stress.....cannot get the songs rite...wat u say...stress...quarrel with family...wat u say...stress.....com spoiled...lagging...wat u say...stress......bass guitar not ok...wat u say...stress.......now go work...no money...no food to eat....always hungry...wat u say...stress....next...im moving away from TWL.....fuck...gonna be far away frm her....lagi STRESS!!!!!!!argh!!!im going crazy!!!!....and u quarrel with me over dat thing??dat small lil thing??i called u and u berbual nk tk nk....den u say im the one who is angry.....u say i keep blaming myself but u put the blame on me.....haiz....i dun wanna quarrel over such things....it is just dat i wanted to msg u a few seconds late...everytime i hold my phone n there u go...i just received a msg or just missed a call frm u...i know i didnt msg u straight when im home...just bcoz of dat minor thing u want to quarrel wif me...and when i wanted to peace off wif u u make me pissed off.......I dunno wat else to say...all i know...i dun want to fight wif u...and ill change 4 dat small matter ok???argh....

I just feel like shouting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WIF ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i think the ego is coming back....i have to control it.....hope u guys dun make me lose control.....
wif all things family,fren,life probs happening at the same time.....i really can explode....i really mean explode...EXPLODE!!!!!and one more thing........i am fking tired......actually my body is rotting....i just ignore the pain n tiredness im feeling...so..im mentally not tired...im physically not stress...but mentally i am........haiz............PAIN!!!!!!!!

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2009-02-04T21:52:00.000-08:00

yey....not gonna miss the bass...buying it frm rosli....selling away guitar n efx only...hahaa...nvm...wont die...i think lar...hmmm....sad to hear bout my bro MR story...read his blog....am thinking wat i can do to help....he's the chief of RL...so..budak2 RL....sikit sebanyak tolong lar....am planning something that would at least ringan kan beban dia...but wat can i do....i cant do it alone...i need at least the whole of RL to help at least...tkkan happy samer2..biler susah kau hidup sendiri....lek eh maan...gua da bbl ngn rosli sroh baca blog kau...i hope i can work with him to come out with something..sabar bro..

To my dumb2...haha...cian dia..sakit ehk....alallaaa...sroh mkn ubat tk nk...degil nyer bdk...hmm...we talked bout going one step futher...but im sorry...i not that fully ready yet....i've told u...soon rite...haha..u'll see how soon it is...ill always be at the side of my loved ones...be together with them through happiness and the struggles...sori if im a bit out of my head dis days...im crazy..haha..but u knw i wont leave u alone....and i wont let ur past repeat itself rite...haha..ily baby...peace

im leaving u

2009-01-29T07:50:00.001-08:00

see those 3....im leaving them.....my red anak angkat im giving it back to her parent...Rosli Osairis....dis bass have been a part of me and also I.C.....im gonna miss it 4 sure...As for my lovely black guitar....im selling u away.....i need to get a bass guitar if not it would be troublesome for my band......so..im selling both guitar n multi efx.....yes...i am sad....but...luckily i have my acoustic wif me......i wont sell that even if there is a knife at my neck.......dats my late uncle's guitar...and it will be passed to the nxt generation.....the most imprtant thing is....

I have U wif me....u make my life...not the guitars....they are just my toys....i can get it anytime....but i cant get u as and when i like...u r too precious to be sold away...yes...i cn die without a guitar...but i will die without u by myside...to support me where ever i go...tmr meet me k.....ily dumb2...

real post..lol

2009-01-28T07:30:00.000-08:00

hahhaa....cool kan previous post.....simple but meaningful know...hahahhaaha......life is getting on really just fkin ok for me.,...as in my life in my family...outside...its a whole diff story....in my fam....its always...nagging...nagging..nagging...im sick of all that shit....can they just accept me the way i am....n stop being such an ass.....i know my roots....but still...u both of u are my family...so u got the rights....hahaa...as for outside....hmm..let me see...Iron Child???braper minggu tk jam nie.....can die sia....we got a gig on 22nd feb...tribute to May.....and also 15 march....feb is at club 6..march is at MM....as for me and aris....aris is performing in march with abg aki rock acadamy students...at suntec....while me...until now haven practice.......i got a performance at suntec too...in march too.....with Yat...RnB comp winner among thousands in Singapore who took part...many said he's the next Taufiq...he looks like one...sings like one...but he dont like it as he thinks he is copying...so...see how lar...

Yesterday....went to....4get where...ouh ok...city hall....den to...marina....den dunno laar....lepak2....den at night at FCP......b4 dat...at penin...walk past dis man....dis guitarist....looks familiar....he's looking at Iron Child....den just gamble and talk about Paul Danial...and guess wat.....he is PD.....have a lil chat wif him....haha..remember youthtified comp....me called up again to perform another 2 songs.....and PD embarresed me saying "ceh best bassist seh " after the comp....i wish it happened again.....

As for u my dumb2.........i dunno wat to say bout u....im really2 sick...and i cant take it anymore......everyday like dis....how am i suppose to live like dis...u tell me....really...u tell me...all this pain u gave me.......haiz....wat am i going to do.....haiz....u...u......im really2 sick now......cant take it.......really.............................................................................................................................................
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im sick bcoz u make me miss u every night u know dat...every second.......i cant take it dat i really2 really....really....luv u dumb2......hahahaha....ily....peace

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2009-01-28T07:26:00.000-08:00

LUV U DUMB-DUMB!!!!!

UPDATED!!!

ECP

2009-01-25T07:39:00.000-08:00

Went to ECP yesterday....after meeting dat precious dumb2 and her fren.....we went to WCP........lepakz....lepakz....story telling.....joke playing.....bla3......its fun.....hahhaa...with all the craps we made....wakakkaa....Then.....went back.......me spilt with them...alighting at J.E.....took 197....towards the east/...thought it was the normal bus i took last time...but...i took the wrong one...i was suppose to take 196....yes..the fkin number 6..........so i reached at Bedok Int at 12.05am....no more bus..power....was also otp with that cute lil dumb2...so...called my dad to fetch me...he said....hes lazy to take me...so what..im like suppose to walk there...n i got no money...ass man dat dad..in the end..took cab...ask him wait there....n take his money away...burn the change...ask for some more..HAHHA..dat nite....everyone is down...went cycling alone....and i really mean alone...it was like the whole ECP is dead....super scary....but wth...went from the middle to the other end...and turn back....not stopping...used up my energy...went to pit...sleep...dat was like 5am/??woke up at 7 am....then there is dis bunch of lunatics...mabok eh mata korang..kk

K..Then....saw dis gal...very the familiar....the way she walk n stuff....then thought it was Tiang..but...dun make a big fuck bout it...den went cycling with faie...he saw...it was really her..haha...i looked away...den...went to the toilet time...saw her...looked away again...pretending dat i nvr saw her...den....in front of toilet..saw her again...dis time the best...right in front of me...step bodoh ar ape lagi...so...one whole day...saw her...never even say hi to her...haha...den still got some things dat i do lar there...like eat...sleep...eat...sleep...penat lar gua...

For my dumb2 only!

i oso dunno y i did that....maybe i fear that u will be like dat time again...sensitive?but its ok...i dun mind u being sensitive...it shows that u dun want to have something like a 3rd party...rite..sori if some of the ppl i know go to the extreme until destroying themselves like wanting me to contact them...i didnt contact any gals now...i swear!nono..its not i didnt...its I Never...serious...see wat ive done to Tiang...i didnt even say hi...maybe im wrong in a sense shes my fren...but 1st time like dis..n dun want to keep any secrets with u and dun want u to be so called jealous or something...Remember k...i always want to make u happy..dats my mission...i never want to make u cry....i dun want all the negative things to be with u...ill always do my best to make dis life wonderful for u...dats is wat im trying to do...and if there is any mistake i did...im really sorry...lastly....imy...and...ily...really...tk bedek...haha...

peace all

1st post after months of blogging-free

2009-01-22T08:31:00.000-08:00

After much persuation....finally done another blog.....weeeewiiiiiittttt.....saper jugak kan yg sroh.....budak tuh jugak......eh...u...ya u....dumb2...u la.......hahhaa...cian dia...ngah sakit kaki terpijak plug....hahaha..ape2 dia bbl aku type...amacam...??now ngah bbl psl tido jatuh katil.......she's OTP wif me......kan2...da majok.....stakat aku jawab main2...hahaha.....I never use ur inhaler lar syg.....hahaha....waiting 4 reply eh.....dia tk tau orng ngah blog nie skrng....hahahaa....

okok...serious shit...hmmm...wait reply u want from me??haha...eversince we are dat close....i feel that theres somebody who would care...i enjoy every second that we spent....even if it is just a phonecall at night.....haha...u really brighten up my life.....my life is is really dark b4 we were so close....it was only after u came that my life really change.those days i dont wear bermudas to town..now...i dare to wear those pants...TO TOWN...hahahha...i did change also......for the better i think.....right my lil dumb2???hahaha...u r special to me..u know it right...we talk alot of things already...lol...we come out with a solution.....hahaha...u know i know....the world dun know......the world dont understand us....they dunno our situation...lol......wait 4 the right time...can??haha...hmmm....let time decide it....but we will be there 4 each other...right??okok....like always....peace all

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2009-01-22T07:44:00.001-08:00

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